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Talking is important.

Correcto - Expressing yourself is important.

You don't necessary need to talk to express yourself, as long as you get the feeling that someone else knows what you wanted to express, that's all it matters.

I think a lot of people may encounter situations where they feel unhappy not because they can't overcome things in their lives, but they just don't have anyone who would listen to them.

I came across some reading materials some time ago saying that most of the time, we don't want people don't want advises nor Captain Obvious telling them the problem, solution or what they would do; people just want to express themselves and that's all.

I think this is very true. Most of the time when you encounter problems or situations where you're unhappy, you do know what needs to be done, though it may not be pleasant. But to be willing to do it, sometimes you just need to say it out to someone who wouldn't tell you what he thinks but more of listening to you weighing your options.

And if you're to make a bad call, then so be it. You shall learn from your mistake. Even if you do die from the bad call, you die honorably doing something on your own.

Okay, fuck the dying part. What I meant is people need to express themselves constantly to maintain sanity. We're social creatures after all. Imagine living 1 month without talking to anyone at all (no instant messaging, whatsapp, sms and emails which are not work related). I doubt anyone could pull that off and still be happy.

I find myself unhappy at times when I don't have time to blog. Reason?
I think I'm not expressing myself fully.

I find myself unhappy at times when I couldn't blog on certain things due to office policies and society's expectations. Reason?
I do not like living a life of lies.

I find myself unhappy at times when I couldn't blog on my sex life or my flings due to society's expectations and fear of hurting my boyfriend's feelings.

Fuck all this.

From now on - No holds barred.

I blog what I want.

Cheers
Robb

Chinese New Year Grinch

Is it me or every year that you're older, CNY just turn less fun?

Guess I'm gonna be a grinch today and share that CNY for me wasn't much for me to talk about (at least in positive light).

Sure, the meet up with my parents and relatives were timely (once a year to see relatives you barely care about is alrighty), lousang sessions and gambling are okay but everything else... just seems so.. not fun any more.

I remembered as a kid that CNY was the time of joy mainly due to the following reasons;
- You get money! Lots of money from angpow
- You get compliments for your achievements from all your relatives(technically my siblings were very competitive and high achievers when we were younger)
- You get to eat good food that's hard to get (technically expensive but since it's CNY, parents get them for the festive season)

Fast forward to today;
- Money? I gave out more angpow money to my parents, grandparents, close aunt and uncle than I get in return (all because of the stupid expectations my family has about having 'face' after working you must give angpow to your direct superiors)
- Compliments? Please~~ You're happy enough they (relatives) are still smiling when they hand you a miserable red packet containing RM2 in it
- Good food? Am capable of buying them all year round if I want to

So yea. Growing up makes CNY less fun according to my experience.

The only thing that's left for me to enjoy for CNY would be lousang, a traditional local dish available only in Malaysia and Singapore.

If lousang is gone, I'm gonna murder everyone!!! RAGE!!!!!!!

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I play Texas Hold'em Poker and I enjoy it to the max. Reason?

It's not pure luck and gambling as it requires skills to bluff, change betting behaviours and randomness. A little more luck based than Magic but all in all, something I've more control on compared to other forms of gambling methods.

Bringing Texas Hold'em Poker to CNY seems only well received if your crowd is younger (not the aunties and uncles) and have patient in gambling. This means, if next to your table, someone opens a Blackjack table, he's likely to take away all your players. T____T

I guess, it's tough being someone who enjoys thinking more than pure luck.

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No fun in Ipoh nor Penang. Reason?
Too jaded for things like this.

Real reason? I'm fat. LOL.

Gong Xi Fa Cai to you guys.

Cheers
Robb

Home is So Comfortable I Can Die

I have to admit it.

My home is getting more comfy each day thanks to Zach.

Zach has been splurging a lot on new furnitures (his house technically) and I'm leeching off the benefits of them (I'm a leech T_T).

Thanks to the comfortable environment at home, I feel so happy whenever I'm home and I don't feel like leaving it for long. I don't even bother going to gym (yea, excuses again you fat ass), magic or even to celebrate Xmas or New Year outside.

So I spent Xmas and New Year holidays at home playing with Zuzu Zizi Brownie and Zaza. Okay okay, I spent it playing Pokemon too. XD

But the holidays have passed. It is time for me to embrace life again. I shall be more outgoing like hitting the gym and sucking dicks in the shower room, or go play Magic and hook up with random cute guys for dinner (and eating them for dessert).

It's 2012 and it's time for me to step up my gear to be more productive (I'm gay, how productive can I be as a human? LOL) in life! Wootz!

My resolution of the day is 1600x1400.

Yes, I'm fucking lame.

I mean my resolution for the day is to hit the gym after work?

Why resolution of the day and not month/year? Cause I don't want to have make false promises to myself. XD

Heck I might not even be at the gym at the end of today. LOL.

Anyway, have a good 2012 guys.

I'm almost off work today and I'm slacking off to write this blog post. Woohoo!! Slacking at work FTW (FML if my boss or clients read this post).

Ciao!

Cheers
Robb

What Do You Write When You're Blank

Simple.

You just write that you're blank!

=.=

Or you write about bits of your life that no one cares or bothers about like below.

Anyway, my life hasn't very interesting as of late. It's pretty much wake up, go work, go home, play Pokemon (OMG, you fucking kidding me?) and sleep.

I got 2 NDS just for the record, for Zach to play and for me to trade Pokemon (fucking Christ! You're 25, Robb!). The sad news is, the memory card (R4, I support piracy) for one of my NDS malfunctioned and it's no longer usable.

It also happens to be the one with my most extensive number of shiny Pokemons (Someone kill this fag please) saved game.

FUCK ME!!!

Now I gotta replay and catch them all again (woohoo, catch phrase for Pokemon fans). Niamahai!!

Am gonna be grinding more on the stupid childish game to end my new year. Great way isn't it?

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No idea why, but my lust meter is going down. I mean as in going outside the house to hunt. Perhaps I'm finally domesticated? Or it's just a phase?

We'll see.

Cheers
Robb

My Christmas Wish List

First and foremost, I'm not a very Christmasy person due to upbringing and lack of friends (anti social ftw #foreveralone).

But I do have a Christmas Wish List which is;

To spend time with my loved ones, namely Zach and my dogs everyday forever and ever

That's all I'm asking for this Christmas. :)

Let's just say that I'm one that's easily contented these days. ;)

Merry Christmas in advance to all.

Cheers
Robb

Childish Robb

I wanna be the very best
Like no one ever was
To catch them is my real test
To train them is my cause
I will travel across the land
Searching far and wide

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If you could complete the rest of the sentences above, then we're pals! LOL.

Hi everyone! My name is Robb and I play Pokemon.

Yes, I'm 25 and I play Pokemon.

Yes, play. Not played.

FML

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Well, there's this thing in me which really really gets entertained by games ever since I was young. Of course, I'm selective in games but somehow the Pokemon gaming franchaise on Gameboy/GBA/NDS have never failed to attract me to go all in for.

Not so recent, some Japanese gaming company released Pokemon Black & White (end of last year) but I only managed to make time and upgrade my R4 (some chip that allows us to play downloaded games for free) to access the new versions of Pokemon.

Zach is currently on Pokemon White and he seems to be enjoying himself. Somehow the Black version we got from our regular gaming shop wasn't working so we'd need to download it ourselves from the net. Haven't have time to do so because I'm stuck playing the older versions of HeartGold & Soulsilver.

Reason?

This motherfucking R4 has got cheat codes to the games! OMFGBBQSAUCEWTF!!!

All my fucking wild encounters are shiny Pokemon!! IMPOSSIBRUU!!!!

I have 999 Masterball!!! IMPOSSIBRUUU!!

I have access to all MysteryGift/events Pokemon!!!!

I CAN CATCH THEM ALL!!!!!

I CAN HAZ NO LIFE!!! T______________________T

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Oh well, let's see how long Pokemon keeps me entertained before I get bored again.

Meanwhile, Christmas is near! I would be attempting to socialize around by joining a Christmas eve party at KY's house! No, he ain't a fag. In fact, it's a breeders' party and I'd prolly be the only faggot attending.

But all is well cause they are all cool peeps!

What's your Xmas plans like?

I hope it's not playing Pokemon (which I would be doing if I'm not going to KY's place).

Cheers
Robb

Thumpa Thumpa

Tomorrow I'll be at Heineken Thirst 2011 to catch Tiesto live.

While I'm aware that Tiesto is very very huge for most people but somehow... to be perfectly honest, he's not so for me. Perhaps I'm not the kind of guy who's into his thumpa thumpa or I'm just too into the mainstream Gaga and Britney shit.

When I ask myself about trance/techno music, all I could remember were the lousy beats played by Liquid during their ending days or by Marketplace during the bad DJ's times. The beats were... unrecognizable and I couldn't even dance to it. That was bad. Real bad.

So when I heard that I'm going to Thirst featuring Tiesto, I didn't really have much expectations but I do know he's famous and good.

Guess I'll just find out myself tomorrow when I'm there at sepang.

I just hope I have the energy to last through the thumpa thumpa and drive home in 1 piece. LOL.

So what's your music genre?

Classical? Alternative indie? Mainstream Gaga/Britney like me?

I personally like mainstream and classical to soothe my soul every now and then. Listening to Canon in D and stuff like that helps me relax especially after a long day of hard work.

Cheers
Robb

Bored Easily

And I'm back from the dead.

As usual, it is common for me to go missing from blogging every now and then.
Reason? I'd usually blame it on too much work but the reality is I got lazy again. :p

I find myself a little difficult to satisfy or entertained for a long period of time. Games, things to do or even cute guys. I get bored of them after awhile (except for Zach, somehow he casted a spell on me I think).

In fact, I've gotten bored looking for cute guys (at least for the next 2 months) for fun these days. Strange, huh?

As such, I'm constantly looking for newer fun things to do or at least things that will keep refreshing itself or with lots of variants.

Some things that I've enjoyed all these while without fail are;
- New porn. Gay porn to be exact. LOL. Has to be new though
- Magic the Gathering - the fuckers who made the game release new cards every 3 months.
- Mahjong, you don't get dealt the same cards all the time and people's style changes each time
- Texas Hold 'Em Poker - same shit, variance is high and people's play style varies

Anyone has any advice or suggestion of what else can be done which is fun and refreshing on its own like the above?

Cheers
Robb

3rd Person in Relationship

Something spicy for thoughts today with the title above.

Let's nail it down to something more specific - consensual 3rd party in a romantic and/or sexual relationship.

Meaning this is not the adulterer, cheating spouse, wu lei jing scenario but all parties are accepting this willingly.

Now in heterosexual relationships, this usually means the man has got 2 girls/wives to love and the wives treat each other like sister (not sure if it's the same behind the husband's back).

Now in a homosexual relationship, this gets a little complicated. Sometimes it might be something similar compared to the straights but you know, gays are ultimately suckers for dicks, so it's like 3 person in love with each other. LOL.

Am sure this might have piqued your curiosity a little since it's not as common as being gay (it's not as cool to be gay as it was these days, throw stones in pavilion and you'll probably hit 80% gays). I have encountered peers who are in such scenario.

His relationship was a lil similar with the straights, he had 2 boyfriends, but the 2 boyfriends are not in love with each other but merely staying in the same house with him. (But his relationship goes way more complicated since his boyfriends had other boyfriends outside the house as well)

I was recently proposed/uncovered to explore a 3 way relationship with someone who's rather young. 19 years old to be exact. While I'm not exactly a paedophile (since he's legal), I've always had issues with being friends with younger guys due to them being a little childish and clingy.

If I had a fling with someone in that age range, I'd usually stay away for at least 1 month to make it clear that it was just a fling (the amount of messages and IM within the 1 month I had to ignore wld usually be quite a fair bit). Now this 19 year guy do appear kiddish as well as clingy but the thing is, he's quite good with his PR skills.

He managed to sweet talked quite a number of important people in my life to put him in a really good light. As much as I do like him (lust too, no denying that), but I feel that he's not ready to be involved in such a complicated relationship at his age. Heck, I don't even know if I'm ready for such things.

I love Zach with all my life. Sure, I have flings every now and then but they have so far remained as fun times and I have always ensured that it was no strings attached. I don't intend to change that any time soon to be honest, but it seems fair to be curious and dig some info of possible scenarios in the future (or probably not).

Anyone of you encountered or heard of relationships (not just sex) that involves more than 2? Would be better if it's a homosexual relationship as I'd love to hear more to learn (or at least get a better idea of what I may or may not get into).

Cheers
Robb

Lovely Couple

Many a times have I heard from nice people around me, be it colleagues or friends saying that Zach and I is a lovely couple.

I agree to a certain extend.

The part that I agree with?
- We do get along quite well
- We understand each other
- We don't do things that require the opposite to guess and react negatively if it's wrong
- We snuggle and cuddle each day
- I tell Zach I love him every day
- *insert all kinds of cheesy things you can imagine*

The part that I don't quite agree with?
- Lovely couple not for young cute guys 1 meh? We're both not so young and not so cute wor.

My new friend observed us and shared that we do love each other very much instead after lepaking at our house. He could tell from the way we talk to each other (though not filled with romance and flowery words), the way we look out for each other's back and of course, how we sleep. :P

It is almost without fail that every morning, we woke up cuddling each other tightly.

I'm truly blessed to have such a wonderful boyfriend indeed. Love ya, Zach. =3=

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Just for the record, Zach and I have been going on strong 6 years and counting. While most of the other gay friends/acquaintances we knew of don't even exceed 3, I thought ours was the longest relationship ever. Well, at least amongst people we know.

Till I was told by a friend/colleague/reader of mine recently that he's having a 9 years relationship. Damn you, Ivan!

If you didn't tell me, I could have still bragged around that I've not known anyone with a longer relationship than me, LOL.

Am sure that if your relationship lasted 9 years, you guys are definitely a lovely couple as well and I hope you 2 all the best for many more years to come.

What's the longest gay relationship you had or heard of? Do share. ;)

P.S. I think H team and agencies are the best bunch to work with, though the work is not easy to begin with. LOL.

Cheers
Robb