Robb's Past - First Date, First Screw Up, Second Date, Damn Fine!

It's been awhile since I've talked about my past as a homo ain't it? Let's get back to it.

I was then certain of who I am, possessed an acceptable outlook and ready to prowl. I was ready to get a boyfriend (mainly to try hands on for sex). In Perak or Ipoh specifically, it's very difficult to get an ideal boyfriend material. Most of the fags there are either old, unattractive or full of shit that they can't survive in other places hence they're stuck in Ipoh.

That being said, my venture was difficult. Real difficult. But I was eager to date and somehow I got acquainted to a Chinese guy who called himself 'Boy'. Yes, Boy. Stupid name. I know. And guess what? He was a typical lalazai. Blond long hair, small tiny eyes, unable to carry out profound conversations of any sorts. But, being the eager me, I kinda asked him if he'd like to be my boyfriend (I was desperate la!).

My God, he then turned it around and made conditions to me. He even gave me a trial period of 3 months with me and if things worked out, we'll officially be together and he won't pay for any of our dates since he wasn't working (as if I was). I was really stupid (may I also stress desperate) and thus I agreed on his conditions. So I was kinda on trial with this Boy as his probation boyfriend.

Being my first time dating, I really had no idea what to other than dining and watching movies. There was once he even asked for me to get him a gift. I was scratching my head on what to give him and in the end I gave him a keychain. He gave me a smirk but I think I saw right through it that he made bad remarks about me. Lol. I even brought him to a play staged by my alma mater, St Michael's Institution, but him being himself, he hardly understand much English at all, he didn't enjoy it totally and asked if we could leave half way. I obliged as I didn't want him to feel bored.

After 2 or 3 times of going out with him, I kinda felt that it wasn't going anywhere. Okay, we did get into each others pants once, but it wasn't very satisfying to begin with. Well, he was kinda bossy and I think my inexperience self made the situation awkward as well. Lol. But at any rate, I stopped contacting him and he didn't make any effort to contact me as well till 1 month after the last time I called him.

He called me while I was still in UTP (among the last days). It was our typical phone conversations. Hardly any content in conversation and I was the one talking all the time. Well, he wasn't much of a talker to begin with. When he asked me what happened to us, I let him know that it wasn't working and I no longer have any feelings or lust towards him. He accepted it and we never spoke to each other again (except on several occasions where he added me on MSN).

Well, so much for my first date. Lol. But at least I managed to see how another man's dick look like in real life (no on screens, Lol) and had a happy ending.

My second happy ending was during a conference in KL. There was this cute and lean guy with the name Eric. He was a yoga instructor from Alor Setar.

I asked if I could stay over at his place since I was going KL for a conference (was still based in UTP). Initially he said no, because he was experienced enough to tell if a gay stays over at another gay's place, it's obvious that they'll jump into each other's pants. But after a little bit of my sweet talk and ply for sympathy, he granted me a night at his place. Yes!

And right after my conference, I rang him up and we met at KLCC park. It was during sunset. He was really cute. We walked around KLCC park making smalls talks and I was charmed by how talkative he was. He wasn't as talkative as he was. When we chat online he was much more reserved in communicating. I found out the barrier of communication was due to the fact that he wasn't that good in English. Irregardless, the scene was really romantic, both of us taking a stroll in one of the most beautiful park in KL.

After that, we had dinner at KFC (cheapest option around) and went back to his place. He stayed at Sentul. Yes, it wasn't the best place to stay as it was very very.. let's just say.. not exactly the safest neighborhood around. But it didn't matter as my eyes were fixated on Eric, the cutie. Lol, I could have been robbed by him if he really wanted to since I followed him blindly. But thankfully, Eric was a sweet as his looks. He didn't do me any harm (in fact he gave me honey, Lol!).

Sleeping next to a person you have sexual interest is a very difficult thing to do, at least for the first time. I mean, it's obvious what's going to happen next but usually both parties like to play it cool and pretend that they're not going to touch each other. And so both me and Eric pretended that we were trying to sleep and made small chat once and twice. Both of us know we can't fall asleep before we actually jump into each other's pants and as usual, I was the one make the move first (maybe that's where my preference of being a top came about) and we both finally managed to get some sleep after some action.

Eric was... super jeng!!! (Jeng is a slang from Hong Kong that translates to real good). I'm not going into the spicy part but his body was to die for (once again, exception for height, he was perfect). He had lean muscles all over his body and my God, his abs was so apparent when both of us got sweaty. ;) I dare say I've not seen a better body in front of my eyes other than Eric till today.

After that night, I attempted to go after Eric as I was totally infatuated by him (more of his body actually). He kinda informed me that he wasn't that keen but he liked me though. I respected his decision and I stayed a distance as I think he deserved his own space.

Sex with strangers are no doubt wild and fun. But it's very risky as well. Think STD, think of the danger that could lurked around. Of course, seeing that I didn't care much of it when I was younger, I'm in no position to advice anyone but if you do cruise around, don't forget that there are risks involved (including getting busted with your pants down).

After these 2 experiences, a whole new chapter began as I found my one and only love of my life, Zach. Wanna know how it began? It's not going to look good on me, but trust me, it's a story worth telling. Stay tune.

Cheers
Robb

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