I think I've lost interest in life.
Don't get me wrong, I don't mean that I wanna kill myself or something but nothing seems to excite me anymore. Not even the prospect of hooking up with cute guys and getting jiggy with 'em makes me feel excited anymore.
All I do these days are just, waking up to go to work, eat my meals (controlling what I take as well), hit the gym, go home, feed my dogs, clean their shitz, play some mundane game and hit the sack - rinse and repeat. If my life is supposed to have a pulse of activity, it is so suddenly a straight line, at least I feel that way.
I know though that I myself control what kinda life I live and so but I'm seriously lacking motivation as well to do things out of ordinary. I'm comfortable with what I have and yet I kinda resent it cause it's not exciting. It's a stupid dilemma in life where you crave excitement and you don't want to leave your comfort zone.
Easy advise if someone comes to me, I'll tell him to do things slowly but it's easier said than done though cause of the amount of reasons and excuses I've prepared to make this a hill climbing task. LOL. I'm terrible. I know.
All this random crapping is just to express myself since I doubt anyone reads my blog anymore and I assume it's slightly safe for me to crap.
One thing that does keep me sane and happy would be Magic the Gathering. I'm contemplating if I should just play online as I could play any time of the day but I also have a problem of investing in both paper and digital Magic cards as they are not cheap to begin with. I'm already heavy on paper magic but to go on digital, it will cost me an arm and a leg. I do have an option which is to trade off my paper cards for digital cards which means I can no longer play physically at shops.
Oh the dilemma. LOL.
To be honest, I'm horrible these days in making decisions in life. I do think somehow it would have been better for me if the world just ended last December. Told you I'm terrible. Instead of me dying I want everyone to die with me. Take that! LOL
Enough of this 5 minute blogging window I sneaked from work time. Back to work.